Saturday, May 29, 2010

Life vs. My Smarter Ideas

Woke up this morning and had an instant, clear realization: clever, smart ideas can become the inverse of Life.

'What do you mean!?', you ask. 

Very well. Life comes to one, in-flowing, every moment. Our choices are at our end: how seamlessly and fluently can we accept what comes our way and act appropriately upon it? The more fluidly we do it, the more we walk far and deep into this vastness called LIFE. 

Ever played a video game? This is exactly what I am talking about. It throws a reward at you, and you accept it. It throws a challenge at you, and you accept that, too. The only difference is that the appropriate thing to do (enjoy/ fight) is different in each case. But you don't resist the very act that something has come your way. Neither do you develop a smarter idea on the lines of, "OK, I got to eat a banana. How about I got an apple instead? What else can I find? Oh, not this banana, ya know!" (I am visualizing, of course, a childish video game in which you're a  monkey or some such furry thing. Indeed, a real-life monkey would not go on if it decided to have better ideas about food.)

Sometimes I am with the flow. In such moment, inspiration flashes within me, and I follow it without regards for ensuring perpetuity or security. 

This morning, I realized, heck! Sometimes I tend to get back to resistance. To better ideas. To try and be smarter. I stall projects with this attitude. I take longer to do a simple thing. And I give not days but years of my life away. 


What else could I do? I raised my hands in prayer and wished: May I surrender! May I go with the flow! Amen! Amen!


Thursday, May 13, 2010


Excerpt from a note to a friend

Since last night, I have started experiencing the presence of a new feeling in my heart: a love for life. 

The strong dis-interest -- the nihilism -- that I had develop seems to be dissolving. 

I want to do things for myself, with myself. I want to play



Early this morning, I had a strange wish: I wish to be amongst humans who have evolved. For I am tired of cloaking who I can be, and I wish to see who I am. 

And this miracle of being who you are can only occur in like company. 

Sunday, May 02, 2010

Keep Walking

It doesn't matter if no one believes in you, or all do. 
It does not even matter if, somehow, you do not believe in yourself. 

You must keep walking. 

Remember: anyone can walk with belief. The real test of keeping on walking is when you have lost belief. When you have lost a sense of direction, a purpose, and even a sense of being. 

For eons, this is how those who were 'lost' in the desert (literally, 'desert-ed') found their way back & out: they kept walking. It doesn't matter if you have no direction, no compass, and nothing to go on. It doesn't matter. What you are is larger and beyond belief and directions. What you are is life itself. 

Remember: it's all about the walk. The circumstances of the walk, favorable or unfavorable, are mere illusions that fold the core within them. They are here to attract and repel those who are taken by illusions. 

Discard the illusions of favor or the lack of it.

Just keep walking. 

Saturday, May 01, 2010

Wise Self-Advice

My darling:

No one can make you do something as long as you have the courage to refuse. Put all concerns aside. Put popularity and endearment aside. Consider only the truth of your heart. 

Follow it without regret.