Sunday, March 19, 2006

The Doubt of Self

To know that all geniuses suffer from terrible self-doubt, at least at some point in their lives (usually at the beginning of their journey), offers me only very little consolation.

First, being a genius alone is not sufficient to achieve the kind of success I aspire for. Second, terrible self-doubt involves a lot of stomach ache, and this is not to be taken as lightly as it sounds. Third, I forget what I was going to say, but there is a point #3.

And now, what is the kind of success I aspire for? Only to be able to answer ably this one question of God after I die: “What did you do with what I gave you?”

It’s a shame that a great part of my whole life so far has been led in a way to provide no satisfactory answer to this question. If this observation is some form of the terrible self-doubt of the genius, it better be a productive one.

But a question still remains on the table: is genius any good in itself?


  1. no it isnt. unless u do something with it. otherwise its brains and talent gone to waste.

    i speak from experience.

    its never too late, start now. finish all your un-finished projects. its more important to do your best at what youre doing.

    experiment. try out new things. and stick with what feels comfortable.

    my prayers and support are with u. :)

  2. I love the way you point-blankly put it! Thank you. I think your "advice" is no co-incidence. Will keep it in mind.

  3. Hey, was just through.

    Since Mayya has given you the advise I'll put up another question.

    Is genius really genius unless/till it's recognized?