Sunday, July 13, 2008

Your Ego is Making Faces

Ha ha ha ha ha! 

Dear, dear Prophecy! I am almost rolling in laughter! Bless me, but all sublime things are ridiculous! What is a matter of gravity to you is looking like an utter illusion to me! 

So, my darling. Who were you out and about to challenge, when you were careless to your training? You thought you figured it all out? Foolish woman!

Now, do you see? How subtle is the guise of Ego? You were fooled completely properly. The Ego, the subtle ethereal thing, it attacks us from where we are keeping our portals of fear and desire open.

Your Ego trapped you in your expectation of goodness. And what a trap it is! You fell, and other fools jumped in behind you, goaded by their own egos. And here you are, bruised at the knees, understanding it all, but not quite.

While your ego - bad thing it made me capitalize its name - your ego is standing aside and changing shapes again. Right now, it made you de-capitalize it. It is ever so subtle, ever so fooling.

I am your ego. I am here to teach you a lesson. I am going to be here, until you learn and transform me.

All right, I will stop laughing. The ridiculous is sublime again.


Right now, the ego is changing shape again, Prophecy. It is going to tell you that leaving things behind is walking the walk of a saint. "Leave it all!" it is saying. "Walk away."

See, this is what Don Juan has to say:

"If you really want to learn, you have to remodel most of your behavior. You take yourself too seriously. You are too damn important in your own mind. That must be changed! You are so goddamn important that you feel justified to be annoyed with everything. You're so damn important that you can afford to leave if things don't go your way. I suppose you think that shows you have character. That's nonsense! You're weak, and conceited! In the course of your life you have not ever finished anything because of that sense of disproportionate importance that you attach to yourself."

From Journey to Ixtlan
by Carlos Castaneda

This is a lesson for the moment. Is walking away transforms you, do that. If staying is what you need to face the truth and transform you, then dismiss the ploy of the ego, and do the needed. And all the while, don't take this too seriously, or your mind will overtake you.

Practice faith.

Prophecy, there has to be a reason why Allah gave you faith. Why did Allah give you faith? So you can transform. However, it is true that it's your duty to be wise in application of your faith. Listen to your heart every moment. When it says stop, stop right then. When it says go, go right then. Waiting for the moment to pass alters the facts of a given situation, and by the time you make a late decision, it is not relevant any longer. Act without fear.

Nothing else annihilates the shape-shifting ego but submitting one's self to the Will of Allah.

What is the Will of Allah? It is your own true nature. It is the voice of instinct and rightness within you. It is your heart, when it is at peace. It is your Self, when it is connected with the Other. It is you, when you are you. That is all I know.

May Allah bless you. Revert to Hu.